Too much sadness!
Yesterday
Nothing - blah! Horrible day and I was going to go to the gym but got held up at work.
Today.
I took C2 and his friend to Crossy training at 6 a.m. (a 40 min return trip) and then went to the gym before work.
Bike and rower (surprise, surprise) and some upper body stuff. I felt absolutely awful and for some reason I had no energy. It seemed as though I was working at about half my normal capacity, but when I finished I realised that I had actually done almost the same distance/time as I normally do, so what was that all about?
Then another totally unrewarding day at work. More Blah! But I feel guilty for saying that after what follows:
The Cirqlets went to Ann's funeral today. This was finally the catalyst C2 needed for the grief to hit home. I was debating whether I should go (mainly to support them as I had already been to the memorial service) but C1 assured me that it would be better for C2 to be with him and the other Churchie boys. Ann's husband (who was critically injured in the accident) was there on a hospital trolley, attached to oxygen and with four attendants. That poor, poor man. I can't stop the tears whenever I think of him and Ann's children. The boys (about 40 of them) formed a guard of honour as the coffin was taken away and I think that was when it really hit home for C2 .
So...the C's rang and told me that C2 wasn't going back to school and I decided to go home early to have some family time with them. But first I had to visit a client in hospital who has liver failure that may be terminal. Long story that doesn't belong in a running blog, but it took much longer than expected and I've finally arrived home totally drained and disheartened.
Blah!
Nothing - blah! Horrible day and I was going to go to the gym but got held up at work.
Today.
I took C2 and his friend to Crossy training at 6 a.m. (a 40 min return trip) and then went to the gym before work.
Bike and rower (surprise, surprise) and some upper body stuff. I felt absolutely awful and for some reason I had no energy. It seemed as though I was working at about half my normal capacity, but when I finished I realised that I had actually done almost the same distance/time as I normally do, so what was that all about?
Then another totally unrewarding day at work. More Blah! But I feel guilty for saying that after what follows:
The Cirqlets went to Ann's funeral today. This was finally the catalyst C2 needed for the grief to hit home. I was debating whether I should go (mainly to support them as I had already been to the memorial service) but C1 assured me that it would be better for C2 to be with him and the other Churchie boys. Ann's husband (who was critically injured in the accident) was there on a hospital trolley, attached to oxygen and with four attendants. That poor, poor man. I can't stop the tears whenever I think of him and Ann's children. The boys (about 40 of them) formed a guard of honour as the coffin was taken away and I think that was when it really hit home for C2 .
So...the C's rang and told me that C2 wasn't going back to school and I decided to go home early to have some family time with them. But first I had to visit a client in hospital who has liver failure that may be terminal. Long story that doesn't belong in a running blog, but it took much longer than expected and I've finally arrived home totally drained and disheartened.
Blah!
posted by Cirque at 6:18 pm
5 Comments:
Sorry it's been such a hard day, Cirque; what a sad day for everyone at Ann's funeral. I do hope you can cheer up soon & have a good day at the gym and work, etc..
Once again, thank you for your comments on my blog & especially for ferrying me in your car at the GC....what a life-saver you were!
Sorry to hear about today Cirque. Keep up the mental toughness, your energy will return soon.
Really sorry to hear about your day Yvette - However, I'm glad you went along to the service. That was a good move for everyone's sake I think.
Felt really sad when reading your entry - so sorry. Sometimes life isn't very fair. I lost my dad at age 63 suddenly in March this year - reading your entry brought it all back. Have a better day today.
Hugs - things like this put everything else into perspective. Hope the you and the C's are doing okay. xxx
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